I’ve been absent for a while now because of work, family, and moving.I’ve also gone through a bit of a dark night of the soul situation that originally started with my spiritual path (surprise) but bled into all aspects of my life. As a result, I’ve started a massive overhaul of everything.
I’m hoping by applying the K.I.S.S approach to things that I will become more centred, focused and, well, NICER in general. it’s not that I am such a wicked, horrible bitch (though I’m sure there are people out there who think I am), so much as I am a very reactive person. So when the proverbial splatters on the fan, I react strongly most of the time. Apart from being bad for my health, it can have adverse results for me if I’m in my work environment (where most of my splatterings have taken place over the past few months). And to be perfectly honest, I’m sick and tired of living in a state of chronic anxiety and being on a rollercoaster of stress, relief, and uncertainty with rinse and repeat ad nauseum. My sleep has been affected, my health has been affected, and even my personality has been affected. Enough is enough!
I’ve made the conscious decision to change my outlook and lifestyle. I also took a bit of a sabbatical from social media because that was only feeding the frenzy. I feel ok at the moment, even though I lost a “friend” along the way – that hurt, but it is what it is and I refuse to get involved in any self-flagellation over her choice to turn her back. I wish her well. But this is about me and my wellbeing now.