I have the very good fortune of writing this from my new job. The best part about the new job (apart from only being 10 mins’ drive from home – in peak hour traffic), is the Zen Garden just outside my office. It’s so peaceful and gives me a space to just breathe and do a few minutes of Mindfulness Meditation.

It’s a little hiatus during the day that helps me re-focus and centre myself. For that, I am very grateful.

Happy Monday _/\_



I’ve been absent for a while now because of work, family, and moving.I’ve also gone through a bit of a dark night of the soul situation that originally started with my spiritual path (surprise) but bled into all aspects of my life. As a result, I’ve started a massive overhaul of everything.

I’m hoping by applying the K.I.S.S approach to things that I will become more centred, focused and, well, NICER in general. it’s not that I am such a wicked, horrible bitch (though I’m sure there are people out there who think I am), so much as I am a very reactive person. So when the proverbial splatters on the fan, I react strongly most of the time. Apart from being bad for my health, it can have adverse results for me if I’m in my work environment (where most of my splatterings have taken place over the past few months). And to be perfectly honest, I’m sick and tired of living in a state of chronic anxiety and being on a rollercoaster of stress, relief, and uncertainty with rinse and repeat ad nauseum. My sleep has been affected, my health has been affected, and even my personality has been affected. Enough is enough!

I’ve made the conscious decision to change my outlook and lifestyle. I also took a bit of a sabbatical from social media because that was only feeding the frenzy. I feel ok at the moment, even though I lost a “friend” along the way – that hurt, but it is what it is and I refuse to get involved in any self-flagellation over her choice to turn her back. I wish her well. But this is about me and my wellbeing now.


So, I had a sabbatical from Farcebook and feel fantastic. I detoxed from all the negative crap I was being bombarded with on a daily basis, started a page for my Reiki business and started my masters in Reiki.

Last night I did a Manifesting and Working with Crystals workshop last night which was AMAZING!! It’s really given me a refresher with my crystals and urged me to do more energy work. I am going to look into Pranic Healing next.

Last night’s Beltane energy resonated with me as well. So there will be plenty of healing and growing to be done during November. New beginnings and new ways of doing things are also on the cards.


Using Pain & Frustration In My Spiritual Practise

​So I’m really no stranger to either in my life. I am probably the most accident prone person I know (and I suspect that most people know :P). Sunday night I ended up redoing a fracture to my wrist that I originally did about 8 years ago. I went to the doctor who sent me to the hospital who x-rayed it and subsequently set it in plaster and sent me home.

I was in a lot of pain (and still am to a lesser degree). ​ It’s my right hand and lucky for me I’m left handed. So that helps big time. But the first three days were a nightmare. I ended up having to have two days off work because I couldn’t type and 95% of my job is – you guessed it – typing. Then on Wednesday morning I got a removeable cast which is SOOOO much better. It’s lighter and less bulky. But typing still takes its toll, so I’m on reduced hours. And I still have a fair amount of pain (but good painkillers).

As a result, I have had more time to reflect on things and up my spiritual game. I’ve increased my meditation, thought about what I really want to achieve, and tried to implement it. The pain in my wrist has been quite intense at times and has interrupted me when meditating and sleeping. My automatic reaction is to utter a swear word (or several) in one of a handful of languages I know, and ruminate on "why me". Instead, I have used the pain as a reminder to come back to the present and to reaffirm that my intent is to focus on being the best version of myself and that I’m a constant work in progress.

I’d like to think it’s successful, but it’ a series of constant baby steps. I’ll be in a cast for the next four weeks, so I’m sure I’ll have some setbacks. But as long as I can remind myself that it’s ok to not be perfect and my feelings are normal, I should be able to make some progress. So that’s a start.


Last night was a bit of a comedy of errors so I didn’t get to go back into Shrine​. I also didn’t get a chance to go to bed earlier than 11.30pm and was up at 5am after broken sleep. So I’m utterly exhausted.

I’ve also had to forcibly go on a short hiatus from Farcebook because quite frankly, with all the bullshit people are posting without fact checking about the Las Vegas shootings, my bullshit meter is well and truly broken.

Today though I put on my Shabu made for me by my dear friend SetjatAset for the first time in a few years and I feel quite grounded and comforted knowing it’s on me. So that’s a really good start.


Had a very intense and eye opening experience last night. For the first time in years I went into Shrine. It was a full moon and the pull to Aset was undeniable. I offered Her some Fireball Whiskey and Sat there meditating and "talking" to Her.

The energy was almost too much to bear and I felt the effects for hours afterwards. I don’t think I got more than an hour’s sleep at a time. I had to get up and ground several times. But though I’m tired AF today, I don’t regret it happened. And I feel much more settled about things today. I think I’m headed in the right direction. As Jewish as I am, I don’t think the role of religious Jew is ever really going to be mine.